Irritated

Recently I was reading this devotional about how if you only ever construct and criticize people that they will tend to avoid you and even fear you. I know I have a lot of growing and stretching to do but lately I'm feeling weighed down by my weaknesses and short comings. I feel like that's the spotlight and it sucks. 

I want to do well, I truly do, but I'm stuck somewhere between wanting to take care of myself and wanting to give my all to others. How does one find the balance? 

Doing the best "I can" is painful because lately my best sucks. I'm growing and stretching and in the mean time things are falling in the gaps with nobody to help me cover the slack. Sure God is there for me on a spiritual level but the physical level is pitiful at the moment. I guess all I can do is lean on Him and hope that others will see the big picture and allow me grace in the process. 

Right now I want nothing to do with this. But I don't really have a choice. God please help me have perspective.... Pull me out of this funk.