Colour conference

Sometimes there's a song that you listen to that stirs up memories that you aren't particularly fond of. For me that song is How He Loves Us by The Glorious Unseen. There are other bands that have done their own version of this song, but nonetheless this one is a trigger for me. 

This weekend I had the privilege of attending a women's conference in NYC with some of my oldest friends here in Philly. The Colour Conference has been around for 20 years but this is the first time that it has come to the USA. Overall the entire thing was incredible. I laughed. I cried. I crushed HARD on the one emcee 😂 and met with Jesus in a new way. Bear with me, this post is going to be long. Go ahead and take your bathroom break now. I'm on a bus on I-95 and trekking to the bathroom is not a safe option. 

To be honest, I'll just list the highlights. 

FRIDAY- Bobbie Houston reminded us of 4 things that never get old: worship, knowing you are royalty, your calling/mantle/mandate, and courage. Bobbie reminded us that when you know who your King is, you will develop a new courage in that identity of royalty. 

SATURDAY- session 1

DawnCherie Wilkerson was incredible. God truly used her to speak into my life and tell me how proud He is of me. I know full well how much I have disappointed my earthly father but God is no dissappointed in me. He's incredibly proud of who I am and what I am doing for HIM.

Session 2/3- two different panels of women spoke on being part of a sisterhood of women who can value themselves and therefore value humanity. 

Session 4- at the final session we were singing my "trigger" song when I was thinking about God and I was asking him to tell me again of how proud He is of me. I envisioned myself standing with him and Jesus just saying over and over again "Cherith, I'm so proud of you." As I listened to the words "he is jealous for me" I had this moment where I sensed Jeaua telling me that He loves me so much and He is so proud that He just wants some alone time with me. His love is so fierce and passionate that it can't easily be interrupted and will never dissipate. And I thought in that moment "ah, that's why". You see this whole time I questioned if God is holding out on me. But He isn't he's preparing me to add a third person into our relationship and right now there's just not room. Jesus and I are jealous for and obsessed with getting to know one another and that's ok with me.